Last year was a tough one for me with regards to friendships. I lost two people that I thought I was pretty close to, and I honestly do not know why. When people make a decision to leave your life and do not tell you what the problem is it is hard. It will leave you wondering, and it will leave you hurt.
How can someone that you shared so much with wake up one morning and decide that they no longer want to be in your life? It makes you think that it was something that you did. But it shouldn’t. If someone decides to leave your life then let them. While it might hurt you it shows more about them than it does about you.
Also remember that not everyone has the same heart that you do. This has been very hard for me to acknowledge and accept as well. I am that friend who will drop everything if you need me. I’ll come to your house at 02:00 if you’re going through something and need to talk.. So it’s hard for me when people are not like that. Please do not get me wrong – I am not saying that I expect all of my friends to be like that. Not at all. I know that everyone is different and everyone shows their love in different ways; I get that. That is why some friendships work. But it can be hard when you need someone and no one is there.
I think that when you’re that person and friends still kick you out of their lives it is even harder. I mean what else is there that you could have done? Let us also remember that everyone has problems and everyone has busy lives. Just because someone doesn’t message you back right away or is not always available, it also does not mean that they do not care. Life happens.
Saying goodbye to friendships is something that I have been doing all of my life. There are people from high school that I thought would be bridesmaids at my wedding (one day) and we do not talk anymore. But it also means that at this stage in my life I am looking for stayers. I am looking for people that are willing to be there. I am looking for someone that will be willing to go for midnight ice-cream runs, and spontaneous road trips, and people who will bring chocolate to me when I have had a bad day. Also, just having someone to talk to on WhatsApp would be great!
Knowing that people have chosen not to have me in their life is hard but knowing that it gives me the time and opportunity to find people who will care about me makes it all better.
Have you ever had a friendship break up and not know why? Ever been the one to say goodbye and not give a reason? Let me know in the comments below!