It started 9 years ago when I first created a Facebook account. Okay so maybe that is a bit dramatic but Facebook is becoming a source of unhappiness for me. Why don’t I just leave? Well that’s what this blog post is going to be about.
I am 25 which is kind of terrifying because I thought that by this age I would have my life together. I would be married and either pregnant or already have a baby. As it stands I am lying on the couch on a Sunday evening in my pyjamas, single, and watching Friends.
Every time I go on Facebook I see someone else that I was at school with has got engaged, married, or is having a baby. There are people that I went to school with that have 3 children. Recently I had a conversation with my friend about wanting to be a mum (and a wife) and she asked if I was really ready for it. I literally sat (well we were walking) and told her my entire plan about how I would juggle work and motherhood.
I think that it’s because all I’ve wanted is to be a wife and a mum. And the fact that it doesn’t seem to be happening any time soon is scary for me. But what does this have to do with Facebook? Every day I see other people, the same age as me, who are making their dreams come true and getting what I’m waiting for.
I mean I know that there is a plan for my life and that when the time is right it will happen but waiting around is the hardest thing to do. Also, so many people that I was at school with are moving to England which has only been my dream for the past 15 years but am I moving? The answer to that is a big, fat nope! And this faces me on Facebook on a daily basis.
So why do I continue to stay?
Because seeing people realising their dreams makes me happy. I love seeing people who are doing what they want to do and are doing so well for themselves. Also, I am nosy as heck!
I hope that this rant hasn’t been too off putting. This is something I have been thinking about for a while and I needed a place to share my feelings. Isn’t that what having a blog is all about?
Also (here comes a shameless plug) since you’re here how about giving me a little like on my Facebook page 😉
Does anyone else have any of these feelings so I can feel a little bit less crazy? Let me know in the comments!